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超級、無敵忙！忙！忙！怎麽辦？

苦中作樂這個道理小女懂，可是我就是怎麽也都樂不起來。

好忙哦。東西好像永遠都做不完。爲什麽人要做那麽多的事？不明白爲什麽事情總是做不完？做完一堆又還有一大堆在排隊等著處理。

天哪~ 神哪~ 救命啊！小女好累，真的很累人咯！如果再這樣下去，不累死才怪呢？不是瘋子也一定會被搞瘋的！很想這一切快快結束。

今天星期一直到這個星期六都有一大堆的考試。一個星期連續考，都不能休息。接著，試考完了又有assignment要交。

24個時間不夠用呐！不能呼吸了，逼到非常緊，連喘氣都沒時間。還有好多…好多…好多…未完成的事物在等著。

好煩~！！！

想念の資格

最近大家—小女的朋友們都過得相當的不錯也很替他們感到高興。我啊…才剛剛放假回來，回到上課的生活是有一點點地不太習慣。我想啊…應該是想念家、想念床、想念吃的、喝的…想念好多好多喔！

這裡的生活是還不賴啦。勉強得可以讓人接受。只是每天一起床想到要過著一個人的日子真的很孤單。不知道要從哪裡尋找回以前得到一絲絲的快樂。現在快樂對小女來説遙不可及，原本大學生活就應該要多姿多彩！哪像現在這樣？什麽都沒有，簡直是空。空蕩蕩的…

不好好地珍惜以前擁有的一切，現在才感嘆、後悔又有什麽用呢？也許你們不會知道，強顏歡笑的日子過久后，它的背後是寂寞。她的寂寞沒人看得見，因爲她把它好好地隱藏…好好地收藏起來…僞裝、假裝…好讓大家放心、安心更不想讓人擔心。

這種日子過久后，人會慢慢地改變。或許以前的她把見面當作非常理所當然，不懂得珍惜。可是現在的她，只要是給她一點點…短短地幾個小時，她就會開心一整天。幸福就是那麽簡單！要的不是很多，給的也不算少，一切剛剛好。取得一個平衡就好。重質不重量。

看到這篇文章，可想而知小女又在想念大家了。怎麽辦？小女還是改變不了想念大家的習慣。現在才明白小女的想念是怎麽一回事了？

是因爲孤單、寂寞、沒歡樂的笑聲

大家的聲音…

你們知道了嗎？

Happy Birthday to Jia Ping

2008-08-11 is a very important day for one of my friends – Jia Ping. This date is her birthday. Yesterday already started to plan for her birthday but everybody seems like very busy with their work. So, unfortunately, I thought that this year can’t do anything for her beside by using the sms and email.

Every Monday, we are going to have same slot of the lecture class together. Then, during the lecture class going on, Mandy and I crack our brain to think that how are we going to celebrate with her by not disrupt Mandy’s important dates and time consume.

Plan 1: having dinner together – FAIL

Because as we all know, during night time is always full and packs. Besides, the plan comes too rush. Haha, due to my inflexible is also the main problem too.

Plan 2: buy a cake and card – ON

Although it is so simple, plain and no excitement at all but are meaningful to me because cake and card represent my full of love and care to her. Cake is sweet and Card is the feeling. Can you feel it? Hope you like it ya.

Here are some words for you:

Birthday girl,

I know that you are giving yourself a lot of pressures toward the society and studies. But remember that you must give some time for yourself ok? Previous years, you had been taking care of us.

Every time when we need help, you will come and approach, give your comforts and highly concerns to us. We all really appreciate it by having a good, best friend like you.

As what the card that I had written, I don’t know whether next year, at the same time, same day, still has the chance or opportunity to celebrate together but I sincerely hope that you can stay happy and healthy throughout your life. May your dreams come true and wish you all the best in future. Take care, my friend.

Last but not least, a 20th HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you. Muacks!! *@*

Beijing Olympic 08-08-08

haha, taken by me frm the tv

Yeah!!! Ei!!! Beijing Olympic, 2008-08-08, opening ceremony LIVE in Singapore channel 5 and TV 1 in Malaysia but I do not know why the Malaysia TV not as clear as the Singapore TV. -____-" Haiz, Malaysia still got large improvement need to be improved.

My mummy was very delighted because she was wondering and waiting for this day to come. So, 8:08pm the celebration started. She is so excited and ask me to accompany her to watch the programme together with her.

In the first place, I wonder that what is so special for this celebration. This is only for those people who are active in the sports will chase the programme. Besides, I thought there are only putting some colorful firecrackers, marching, singing and dancing. But I was wrong! It was an amazing performance.

China using all their people forms an art. China using all their manpower and IT to complete this ceremony. It is quite difficult for me to explain because I do not know how to describe. I only can say that it is totally incredible and unbelievable! Their imagination grows wild makes their performance very lively and interesting. This is what I can say much WONDERFUL FANTASTIC EXCELLENT!!!

昆蟲住宿—就在我《家》！

真是受夠了！！！小女在想啊…小女好像這一輩子跟動物托不了關係。（喜歡的人，名字好像有動物的諧音。haha =P）

前陣子，婆婆家冒出了老鼠的叫聲，半夜三更當國王/皇后。然後，小女跟老鼠交戰（互看）。不要小看互看哦！小女只差沒送入醫院。（嚇慘呐，多可怕，多恐怖啊！）

弟弟再也受不了了，所以只好找來了一位研究所的大學生一網打盡斬草除根。沒想到三兩下子就搞定了！你們說捉到了幾只呢？好吧！小女在此跟大家分享。

答案是：1只大只的和3只小只的。（真的有夠噁心but小女沒那種福氣看不到because不在家。哈哈。在學校上課呢！）

現在呢？不知道爲何？小女家裡的狀況是好一點，比起婆婆家是好很多。（猶豫）只不過，咳~~~蚊子太多了呢！爲什麽？從哪來的？不懂也…打了1只又有很多只。永遠打不完…忙~忙~忙~

每天爸爸媽媽晚上的工作就是打蚊子。那當然打蚊子一定會要用到工具啦！所以鏘~鏘~鏘~鏘~就是它啦！

打死很多只的momo (mosquitoes)

嘢~還真不知道爲何世上的昆蟲繁殖地那麽。比人類還快。（這是什麽形容詞？）一只接一只，不斷地播種。把疾病傳到人類身上，真的有夠不應該！

蔡旻佑 - (抒情版) 雙截棍

看看小豬的表情，

他是有很陶醉在聼蔡旻佑的琴聲和歌聲。
蔡旻佑是把雙截棍換了旋律，

還真的很好聽呢！
有點可愛加一點點地浪漫
~ so sweet and full of love ~
very nice^^

Fun gathering in Terbau

Yesterday evening, I went to Terbau City with Ah Miao, Jian Hui and Chia Ying to catch a movie. This was the first time we gather and watch movie together in Johor Bahru. It was a good day to me.

We watched The Mummy – Tomb of the Dragon Emperor. Erm, if let say we compare this movie with Batman, I think is incomparable and not fair because it is totally different types of movie because Miao Miao said that the Batman very boring, too long winded, so he slept off when he watched the Batman with Chia Ying last week.^^

Maybe some of the people like The Mummy rather than the Batman because the story of the Batman quite difficult to understand and too long. Why I say so? Because when the Batman started filming, at that time I do not know the show already started. See you scare or not? That time, sha sha de very good lo, she laughs at me and make me feel so embarrass.

But never mind, it is a good experience to me. The first movie which let me cannot understand easily but I like it very much! From the beginning of the story until the end, I just focus on the Christian Bale. He is so handsome.

Ok, now let share about The Mummy. This is a very nice show and I love the one sentence: 人用一生去愛自己喜歡的人. What an amazing sentence. It is so touching and romantic. If my love ones say this sentence to me, I am sure I will treasure the word inside my heart forever till the end of my life. Haha.

In conclusion, the Chinese girl, Lin who I do not know what is her real name. She is very pretty and nice. Besides, the part that I shocked was, Huang Qiu Sheng can speak English very well! Cool man~~~ hehe… I am so surprising! (maybe he can teach or Jay can learn English from him...haha) XD

batman = MY MAN =P

小女最近啊看了Batman – The Dark Knight與俠女和傻傻的一起看半夜場。那天晚上，小女是有多麽的high。因爲很興奮、很高興可以找回光和熱和你們一起的感覺。那份不能再任何地方尋找的依賴。

當小女想起你們的時候，就可以好好的回味，我們曾經經過的電影院、看過的電影、吃過的食物、喝過的飲料……這一切的一切，小女都不曾向你們説。因爲擁有當下的時光是最美好的…最珍貴的…

雖然開著車自己回家的路上是蠻恐怖的，很危險，也很怕。也答應爸爸媽媽以後不會再看半夜場，不會再夜歸。小女希望自己不是說說就算，答應的事可以辦到。畢竟大家也是擔心小女的個人安全。小女會盡量啦~~~

有位女孩看了batman，可是看不懂劇情。重點是小女自己也看不懂（剛開始），之後才明瞭。所以，小女一整集下來，只是在注意我的男人！他是超帥、超有魅力的、他的眼神是充滿著愛火…簡直無人能比^^

handsome @@ ( I love mature guy) haha...

假期 = 零蛋

失蹤的這幾天

小女子我

一直忙著趕

一堆有的沒有的

以爲…

趕完就可以輕輕松松的放假

卻沒想到

根本就沒有我想象中的美好

才剛剛要

開始的

短短的

一個星期的假期快把我逼緊了

原本想趁假期好好要玩一玩

結果嘞？全部計劃統統泡湯了

第一天的八月份

小女已經感到有壓力了

接下來的30天該怎麽過呢？

一年一度的夏日八度演唱會

每年度都期待它的來臨

可是這次離小女很近

仿佛又遙遠遙不可及

要眼睜睜看著它離去

傷心啊~~~ 難過啊~~~

一個星期的假期

卻不是假期

一個超high的演唱會

卻偏偏無緣

My dear friends,

Happy Mid-term Break!!!

Have Fun &

Enjoy wonderful moments in this long weekend~~~

Miss you all very much^^

Take care…

不再繼續執迷不悟

昨天早上下了一場很大的狂雨
有一點點地打雷
有一點點地颳風
好像試圖是要把我淋醒的感覺

可是如果這場雨真的有用的話
我就不會到現在還是迷迷糊糊
人生的旅途有起有落是必然的
就像座蹺蹺板起伏有高也有底

期待越高那失落感是特別洶湧
可使人窒息徹徹底底痛到谷底
背著痛徹心扉面臨崩潰的邊緣
多麽地慘痛卻要有堅強的勇氣

今早起床的我有種想法想消失
讓自己變不見變透明變得渺小
然後離去在這煩人無味的城市
慢慢被時光抽離漸漸失去自我

人群中我是多麽的孤獨又無助
我很討厭現在沒有目標的自己
我一直不斷地給自己機會改變
可是就這麽的力不從心想放棄

大家注定看我怎麽死

我就怎麽死了

豈不是死得很難看？

我也不好受...

雖然現在有些變化
不再像之前過日子
也許這樣對我是一件好事吧？

以前我行我素風格
想做什麽就做什麽
是時候給愛我的人關心問候了？

從不顧慮到愛我的人
讓等待的人
等回家的人
你對我說是一件多麽令人焦慮的事

我根本就不懂
因爲你從沒說
或許你揣測
如果那時你讓我知道
當下我一定覺得你很煩
跟你發脾氣
跟你翻臉
跟你撕破臉
也許是這樣所以你不說
可是我被責備了

從來都不提起
我也就很習慣
把它當成是一件很自然的事
並沒有覺得有什麽不妥當
可是我錯了

當間諜也不容易
每次每報你就會擔心
我們就會不爽對方
我知道你這樣做是對我好
這我懂

可是我…
我會失去
我怕失去
我放不下
你明不明白呢？

我已經失去很多了
所以大家是不是覺得
我應該不用去在乎失去多少是嗎？

李宗恬，
你要知道現在沒有人會為你加油了
你早該從現實中清醒

一個人的日子我還要過多久？

你以爲拒絕
你以爲不遵守約定
你以爲只有你一個人傷心嗎？
失言的人不痛嗎？

失言的人只是沒說而已。
你有多失望。
失言的人也不會好過到哪裏去！

Happy Day

Hahahaha. Today quite a nice day, my mood also very delighted. Long time did not have this kind of feeling already. I think this is because I met up someone accidentally that I did not see this people for nearly two months? I think got so long gua. I think only la.

Hehehehe. Long time never tease people, I think this is also the another factor. Sorry ya, Miss 博愛女. She always did deny that what I had teased her but in other way, she seems like accept what I said about is the reality. I think only. (in my dream)

I need to write like this because I scare that she will angry with me. But anyway, she is a kind hearted person which I never seen before this. When she appears, I realize that in this world still got a person who is so cute - representative is her. (praising) I sure need to be more sweet.^^

博愛女, I know that I give you a lot of trouble during last time and always keep bothering you every time. So, you must be very free and happy nowadays right? Because I am not around with you anymore for these months, and more, and more years later.

Is it not surprising that you are going to leave us next year? I hope that I had made your life interesting and now what you can do is please think of me more often ok?

I appreciate you as my lovely 博愛女.

Thanks for being my 博愛女.

Human Being VS Domestic Animal

I don’t know where comes a domestic animal inside this house with such a terrible conditions place. I had suspected two weeks ago before because I slept late at night. Today, I found out that it went inside my room just now!

Because I study till very tired, so i decided to go to the living room for watching 100% entertainment hosting by Xiao Zhu and Xiao Gui. Then, I saw one idiot crawling like nobody business. It though that I couldn't realise it! So, I quickly went to close my room door. But unfortunately failure!

1 hr later, it manage to crawl inside my room! I think I am too slow already. Damn it! Horrible! Idiot! Bastard! Shit! 'You' are too bold, my room also went in. Don't you think that you are an idiot? Nobody likes you. In my room, you looked at me like I am not suppose to come in! What a laughter? Kanasai!

This domestic animal more active and energetic during late hours, while human being sleeping, they think that they are what? The king of the house?

轉機 chances

如果還有一次，重新做選擇的機會，結果會不會不一樣？
聼了一遍又一遍，看了一次又一次，還是依然的感動。

潘瑋柏-轉機

凌晨的飛機
隨歌忐忑飛行
從相機裏面
見識著回憶
背景是殘影
我哪裏都不想擦去
到哪裏痛楚計算清
怕遺憾拖遠
易碎的情緒我收聽
想你在一起
我卻身不由己
你每次傷心
我每次缺席
遙遠的距離
我以為我們的愛情誓言裏
還會有轉機
沒想到陌生機場
寫下結局各自的轉機
我放不過我自己
轉一圈回到了原地
眼淚是一種提醒
我很愛你
讓一切歸零
我放不過我自己
仍相信愛會有奇蹟
人群中我正逃離
我抱著你
我們的愛情還未完待續
我放不過我自己
仍相信愛會有奇蹟
人群中我正逃離（尋找我們的轉機）
我抱著你
我們的愛情還未完待續...

I fell down again

I decided quite a long time whether to go back on this week or not because both of my parent’s birthday are celebrate in this weekend.

Yesterday is my daddy’s birthday (10/07/2008). After attended all my class, I planned to go back and then rush back on Saturday (12/07/2008) again. The important thing is my mommy’s birthday is on Saturday. It is such a nice date??!

I reached Malacca Sentral around 3:50pm. Fortunately, I catch the 4:00pm bus. In my thought, I think that I am very lucky.

On the others hand, my luck end when I went inside the bus, I didn’t notice properly that there was a stair inside the bus in front of me because usually I sit front sitter.

5 minutes later, the bus driver asks me to move in front and the place taken by two guys. Then, I would think that why can’t the bus driver in the first place give me a front sit? If he does so, i wouldn't fall down again.

(inside the bus) so painful >.<

(day 1) got hei ching ad ='(

(pain pain neh~~~)

Announcement!!!

一個不知爲何在前兩年對她一見鍾情的女子，

一位來路不明無人不知長髮真的過長的女子，

讓小女看一眼之后就對她如痴如醉爲止瘋狂。

一個陌生人可以擁有那麽大、那麽強的魅力。

（廣告）

她就是小女其中一位好姐妹之一
今天是這位壽星女的破蛋日
在此，小女獻上最真誠的祝福
雖然，不這麽值錢啦！
但是，希望你不要嫌棄
因爲，最近經濟不景氣
油价漲，全部東西跟著一起升
小女沒有禮物送上是很正常的
你要適應哦^^

I am here to hope you that you can be very cheerful and radiance in the coming future. Maybe I cannot join or celebrate your birthday every year when we had graduated. I think it is a little bit earlier to write this, but I don't know why my mind came across such foolish thoughts.

But I will promise you that I won't forget to send greetings to you as many years doing the same thing in a particular date.

Although, I am not your one and only friend that you had. When we go into different path in life, causing both of us did not meet up often. I treasure all the time and sweet moments that we shared. No matter is long or short, thank you very much la.

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ^^ may your dreams come true~~~

2nd ANNIVERSARY

一个男人得到了一条小鱼，一条始终微笑着的小鱼。入夜后，他睡了，他以为他的鱼也睡了。但是，他却突然发现，鱼发出绿光，带着鱼缸在空中飞翔。他跟随着鱼走过空荡荡的大街和童年玩躲猫猫的森林，回忆起了过去的种种美好。

他住在城市郊区的一栋旧公寓大楼里， 每次出门，不管去哪里，总是习惯性的， 先向右走。他从不曾遇见她。她住在城市郊区的一栋旧公寓大楼里， 每次出门，不管去哪里，总是习惯性的，先向左走。

天使在地下铁入口跟她说再见的那一年，渐渐看不见了。15岁生日的秋天早晨，窗外下着毛毛雨，還記得是六点零五分，她走进地下铁。看著一路上的風景，她听见充满着颜色的声音，看见会发出声音的颜色。

于是他们在都市的转角、在树梢的微风、在向地底的入口、在往天空的出口。
从这一站到另一站，他她之間的距離只有10公分。緣分將他們牢牢的牽在一塊。不管發生再大的阻擾，都不會將他她分開。

緣分對了，一切就對了。他她最後始終相遇了。

Hehe, a good news from owner:

My bloggie baby celebrating two years old!! =)
Happy Birthday ya^^
Thanks for accompany me these few years.

No matter when I feel happy or sad.

Here is the only place that will not chase me out.
I can feel free to express everything, anything on here.

My bloggie baby,
I will treat you well and give you the best,

as much as I can ya!!
Haha =D

.::::Love and Peace::::.

有些人

有些人不必留戀
因爲有些人根本就沒有在乎過
雖然有些人偶爾想起你
那也只是遇到困難的時候罷了
感覺到孤單的時候罷了
所以時間久了就會淡了
有些人就慢慢地忘記了

看開一點吧？
這就是人生！

哈哈。真可笑~~~
好笑的是我還放不開
爲什麽有些人就可以
那麽簡單呢？
那麽容易呢？
是我笨嗎？

一切的一切都結束吧？
全部都一起統統收回去吧？

如果這是對我的懲罰
我會默默地坦然接受這一切
一切都再見了
我已累了
不想讓現在的生活變得複雜
我想要簡簡單單的過每一天

給對有些人的話：
以後如果我們碰面了
你可以當作沒看到我
不用那麽勉強的溝通
倒不如不要講話！
因爲我會覺得
我更不好意思
讓你開口對話
讓我感到很抱歉

所以我不會再介意了
因爲你根本就不值得！
也許是我太敏感了
可是我真的累了

A place where met is the place that relationship end

昨晚跟秋聊了接近兩個小時的電話，該怎麽說呢？雖然小的知道這是很浪費錢的做法。可是人家如果沒有用到RM30，就要被倒扣RM30。所以啊！我們就一直聊…不停地聊…但是，光是醬聊也沒有到RM30。=.='''

-->>分享有關我們的談話中<<--
儅有心要達成某一些計劃或目標時
就讓自己想法朝著那正面方向思考
但是有時想法跟現實差別度相當大
所以不能光只靠著感覺走...
“緣分有時說不准，緣分有時在玩弄人！”

小的也不是要欺騙自己，自欺欺人。只是投射一個瑰麗的夢境將自己捆綁，不想從現實中清醒罷了。但是，人家確實、真的、實在看不下去了。

難免會低落
難免會受傷
但還好被點醒了
也是時候該轉換自己的心態了

努力與付出真的都會有回應嗎？
真的只是郵差早晚快遲的問題而已嗎？
怎麽能不躁急呢？…

回憶依舊如此的清晰播映著
我們現實的差距就如同天地
練習怎麽忘記刪除你的背影
插身離去輕輕取出你我過去

原來愛
無法忘記只是盡量不被想起
遇見你
依然開心雖然最後我什麽也不是
有些事
不需要永遠你應該聼不見這是安靜的語言

我靜靜戀

我的愛再見

你我相遇的地方是錯誤的開始
同樣的地方道別結束也是完美

一個人

一切都很完美
不好的地方就在於
我還沒有完全的適應
非常的辛苦而且好難熬

有誰能夠體會我現在的心情？
我把我的心血完全都付出了
之後沒有機會品嘗自己种的果實
反而還要把种了一年多的樹剷除

有誰真的能夠明白我的感受？
我們慢慢一天天建立起感情
彼此已經有著濃厚的感情了
我們已產生互相依賴的習慣

可是要重新灌溉一棵樹
是很不容易的
需要的是呵護和時間
可是我沒有那麽多的時間

我不知道
我是在爲自己找藉口？
我根本不想努力？
還是已經放棄自己了？

我不知道…
真的不知道…