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14 September, 2006

天空在哭泣

不管我多用力，多使力的抹去它；我的天空依然一直都是乌云。
不管我多么努力的往前走，多使劲地走；我都还是停留在原点。

我的悲伤有谁知道？？
我今天的心情真得很遭。
我不是有心对你们那么冷淡。
我不是故意不理睬你们。
其实，我连我自己都不知道我自己究竟在做什么，在想什么？？
如果可以话，我也想要天天笑口常开迎接每天的到来。
有谁不喜欢嬉皮笑脸，嘻嘻哈哈？？

但是。。。
人生就是曲折。
人生也是波折。

今天，上数学节的时候，我有点想要哭的感觉。我只是在强忍着我的泪水。因为，我觉得我自己好笨！那么简单的数学题都不会。我真的觉得我自己无可药救。当我拿到 business maths's de quiz paper，老师在我的纸上写着：“do more exercises, u can do well...”这时，这句话，让我更伤心，难过。

我突然觉得我的世界变得一片灰灰的。
雨水一直下；一直都没有停止过；再也没有所谓的色彩。
我像是一个找不到方向又不知道应该往哪里飞去的风筝。
它失去了翅膀，不能在天空翱翔
它没有了理想；什么东西办不到
它什么都没有了！！！
它像是一个没有用的废物。。。

她只能在日记里，写着日记，一边写，一边安静的哭。
然后，明天她还要带着笑容装作若无其事，面对这一切。
她好累~~真的真的很想放弃。

放手了才能得到快乐不是吗？？与其在这儿那么痛苦。
（你说可能吗？？父母那边怎样交待？？）
算了。我只是随便说说的。。。这一切都不可能发生。

啊~啊~啊~啊~啊~啊~啊~啊~啊~啊~啊~~~~

09 September, 2006

sWeet t!me

22/08/2006~Da Xi Bei-->kl's trip

21/08/2006--> jusco's trip - k box

i remembered tat everytime, wherever v go any where, any time, any place, v r d most noisy n can play untill very 'siao'...but it was so fun n happy!!!HhuuU... :)

i think got 1 time, (juz happen on late august n beginning september) all of us (me, xh, als n kp) felt tat our fredship does not as good as b4...i also dun noe wat happen 2 all of us???mayb cos some of us seems lik hiding smt fr d others ba???

tat time, i felt very sad n felt lik crying...=.=
y our fredship bcome lik tis??
y every1 seems 2 bcome different as b4??
nobody can help me...
besides tat, i only felt tat, tat was all my problem was all my fault...i think tat i mistreat them or mayb i get angry easily in front of them...at tat time, i cannot do anything...i felt so miserable...i alwz ask myself: "wat should i do now??"
als said: "我看到你一直在傻笑..."

very funny lor...i dun noe wat should i do at d moment...i sure give them a smile 2 show them tat i got hear their conversation la!!!

i very dislik tis thing 2 happen between our fredship, cos tis thing also happen b4 since i was in d secondary school~~i was betray by a group of freds...

but fortunately, i met jing qiu n pei hwa...
tat time, my life only totally changed when i am form 3...cos jing qiu has lighten my life...haha..she has bcome my best best buddy since form 3...she lets me felt tat i also can have a fred juz lik her...
thx ya...my buddy!!! :p

NOW, fortunately, v (me, xh, als, kp, fish) had cope with it liao...v finally found it tat, all r d misunderstood...haha...v all very白痴...but, tis show tat v very care 4 our relationship ma rite??so my fred, by d way, i would lik 2 thx all of u 4 ur understanding...
i'm not d best but i'll try 2 do my part as a fred...

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